Before I was a mom....now that i'm a mom of 5 sons...

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop
the hurt. I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to
make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom

Now, that I’m already a mom,
I had gone thru all the miseries day &  nite
To make them grow & grow….

Now that I’m already a mom,
Of five great sons…
I am really proud to be their mom,
Although I had ran into all the troubles
Of waking up at late nites,
Of yelling at them when they were fighting,
Of scolding them to do their homeworks,
Of getting heartaches when they were so naughty
Of smacking them when they were too stubborn,

Now that I’m already a mom,
I realized that all my hardship
Had been partly repaid at the moment..

Now, that I’m already a mom,
I can feel their love for me,
I can feel their respect to me,
I can feel their care for me,
I can feel their touch for me.

Now, that I’m already mom,
I know that my love for my children is a never ending love…
It is a life time love,
It is a never failing love,
But I do understand that one day,
That one fine day and  the day will come,
That I have to let you go,
Maybe that is the hardest thing of all but I just have to set my children  free…

Now, that l’m already a mom,
I thanked Allah for giving me the strength & courage
to look after all my children up to this stage of life
with full of sacrifices, laughter,tears and love…
with full of troubles, obstacles, roadblocks and miseries…
but I think I’m halfway thru it….
although in the simplest way of life…..

ALHAMDULILLAH…..